Red Heat Update
I think this might be the end of the line for me. My "career", such as it was, may be winding down. The boogie man is gonna me. The end of quarter is coming up and that usually means nut cutting time. I think old WAN's nuts are primed for a chopping. Sunday night I was up until 4am, Monday 3am, Tuesday 5am, Wednesday 2am and last night 3:30am. I've only been under this much pressure once in my life before but I was a much younger guy then. I just powered through it - I should be able to use my maturity and experience to handle this situation. I mean, I've seen it all before. right? Apparently not - it sure didn't work out that way - not today it didn't. There is something wrong with me. I don't know much about mental illness but I think I have seen that Elephant. They dumped another nightmare in my lap today (after I've dealt with and resolved several this week). Shortly afterwards my hands started to shake so damn bad that Methuselah and the Hillbilly had to get me the hell out of there. It was so bad, they had to call Mrs. Walks to come get my ass. We are supposed to be done Monday. We have to be done Monday and I turned tail and fled like a coward.
Took a long nap and I've steadied a bit but WTF? Who the hell gets the shakes working in a office? My work lapper is turned off, cell phone is off so of course they tried the house phone. Mrs. WAN told them to fsck off and took the phone off the hook. She is watching over me like a Lioness - she says that I'm just over worked and that I'll be fine. I hope she is right but I've never had such a thing happen before. I'd be lying if I didn't say I was worried.