Oh dear, there's that bitterness showing itself again.
Bitterness? I'm reminded of that saying about when you are a hammer, everything looks like a nail.
What do you call someone so utterly lacking in charm and grace [PB?]; someone in such constant need of validation despite meriting none of it [PB?]; someone so DYING to be popular and enraged that they aren't? [PB!]
The real story here is your dilemma about how to get Senda into your group of barking seals, thereby increasing the population of your fan base by 25%, and it's girth by 150%. Who wouldn't sign up for episodes of that on a daily basis, especially if you throw in the possibility of
@TigerLily and her annual chore of saying something pleasant to you? The possibilities are endless...like one of your posts.