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Re: After Midnight
« Reply #165 on: April 28, 2019, 05:09:09 PM »
I still belong to BellGab. I have posted about 3 times in the past year in BellGab.
 I did not want @Anthony to be harmed. I did not want anyone to be harmed.
I was impressed with his successful journey from New York to California.
Just my opinion.

I wasn’t talking about you @FISH

I was talking about the three people that couldn’t wait for a train wreck.
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Re: After Midnight
« Reply #166 on: April 28, 2019, 05:17:47 PM »
I wasn’t talking about you @FISH

I was talking about the three people that couldn’t wait for a train wreck.
Good to know. Wanting more pain in this world is not my style. :)

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Re: After Midnight
« Reply #167 on: April 28, 2019, 06:22:45 PM »
The trip shouldn’t have happened the first time. You spent money you didn’t have and no longer have your car. You scared the shit out of @Jedimiller and the only three people you impressed were the ones on Bellgab that were hoping you crashed and burned.  And you still haven’t been to Pahrump.

Take the meds.
I agree...take the meds.
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Re: After Midnight
« Reply #168 on: April 29, 2019, 01:45:42 AM »
Okay, you all win. I concede defeat. I am admitting myself to Bellevue Hospital. I absolutely will be placed back on psychiatric medication and for absolute certain will be placed on AOT AGAIN, by default. I will be gone for quite some time. I’ll be medicated, in treatment, and safe - for life. I will be nice and controlled, living in abject fear for the rest of my time in this world. All the progress I have made is out the fucking window. I’ll probably be living in a group home and on the SSI till. At least I will never have to work again, I can sit on my fucking ass and swallow pills and take injections all day long like the rest of those fucking worthless leeches at the Pomona Clinic. Because I give up. Why fight it anymore and be in denial? I find my strength in weakness, wisdom in lies, and truth in deception. That Light inside of me I felt coming Back, my Humanity, the moving in my soul of ACTUALLY experiencing human emotion will be medicated away and gone forever. Homicidal thoughts will come back on medication, even suicidal thoughts. As I walk past police officers I will CONSTANTLY fight the very visceral urge to grab their Glock 23 from their holster and blow the back of my cranium apart. Or pulling over on The Tappan Zee Bridge and jumping to my death, for real. Because none of you are psychiatric survivors. None of you have had to bury other fellow comrades or go to the funerals. None of you. So the only person who might possibly could have made that one difference, could have turned the whole system on it’s head and changed it to a truly therapeutic one has given up. Congratulations, I hope you all feel powerful. Because I quit. I’m going back on medication. I am commiting voluntary suicide via mental health treatment. And after I get out of jail and back on psychiatric medication for life I sure do hope you all feel safe with that false sense of security. Because the most dangerous thing to a person’s safety, especially their own, is a compliant mental patient on meds. Again, congratulations. The Malcom X of the Psychiatric Survivor/Resistance Movement has thrown in the towel and given up. It’s over. I’ll be dead before I’m 50.

How fucking dare you?

Drama queen manchild, you have no idea of what any of us have experienced in our lives, or the lives of those we love.

You are so wrapped up in your hero/victim complex and wallowing in the fact you are sick and wanting to be some kind of martyr, you are unable to actually empathise with anyone.

Give pees a chance.

Coprophilia is shitty.

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Re: After Midnight
« Reply #169 on: April 29, 2019, 08:21:51 AM »
Good to know. Wanting more pain in this world is not my style. :)

And it's not like this world is incapable of providing just such!

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Re: After Midnight
« Reply #170 on: April 29, 2019, 08:22:25 AM »
How fucking dare you?

Drama queen manchild, you have no idea of what any of us have experienced in our lives, or the lives of those we love.

You are so wrapped up in your hero/victim complex and wallowing in the fact you are sick and wanting to be some kind of martyr, you are unable to actually empathise with anyone.

+1 - straight talk DH! :-X

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Re: After Midnight
« Reply #171 on: April 29, 2019, 08:24:49 AM »
Give pees a chance.

Coprophilia is shitty.

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Re: After Midnight
« Reply #172 on: April 29, 2019, 08:25:06 AM »
Bannister wasn’t the subject of that movie you dolt.

Maybe we deflect him into:

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Re: After Midnight
« Reply #173 on: April 29, 2019, 08:26:17 AM »
I still belong to BellGab. I have posted about 3 times in the past year in BellGab.
 I did not want @Anthony to be harmed. I did not want anyone to be harmed.
I was impressed with his successful journey from New York to California.
Just my opinion.

It was a shining moment born of anger, retired in bliss.

But sadly just a moment and no more. :(

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Re: After Midnight
« Reply #174 on: April 29, 2019, 08:27:27 AM »
Oh I will take the meds. Plenty of them. You all clearly want me dead. Because I’m telling you right now somebodies going to get hurt and it’s most likely going to be me. So if I’m not on in a while and you go to legacy.com and see my obituary, I hope you get the warm fuzzies in side. You dolt.
The blatant sympathy ploy is a wee bit late after all the nasty things you said about your mum... :-[

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Re: After Midnight
« Reply #175 on: April 29, 2019, 10:22:48 AM »
How fucking dare you?

Drama queen manchild, you have no idea of what any of us have experienced in our lives, or the lives of those we love.

You are so wrapped up in your hero/victim complex and wallowing in the fact you are sick and wanting to be some kind of martyr, you are unable to actually empathise with anyone.

Thank you, @DynamoHum. That's all I have to say is a heartfelt thank you. +1
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Re: After Midnight
« Reply #176 on: April 29, 2019, 10:36:43 AM »
How fucking dare you?

Drama queen manchild, you have no idea of what any of us have experienced in our lives, or the lives of those we love.

You are so wrapped up in your hero/victim complex and wallowing in the fact you are sick and wanting to be some kind of martyr, you are unable to actually empathise with anyone.

@DynamoHum  thank you for everything you do.
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Re: After Midnight
« Reply #177 on: April 29, 2019, 10:59:18 AM »
Thank you, @DynamoHum. That's all I have to say is a heartfelt thank you. +1
@DynamoHum  thank you for everything you do.
+1

The sad thing is he will probably never ever get to read it...
Give pees a chance.

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Re: After Midnight
« Reply #178 on: April 29, 2019, 11:02:33 AM »
The sad thing is he will probably never ever get to read it...

Things are changing, aren't they - to wit:

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Gone are the road trip videos and almost everything else. :-\

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Re: After Midnight
« Reply #179 on: April 29, 2019, 12:45:22 PM »
How fucking dare you?

Drama queen manchild, you have no idea of what any of us have experienced in our lives, or the lives of those we love.

You are so wrapped up in your hero/victim complex and wallowing in the fact you are sick and wanting to be some kind of martyr, you are unable to actually empathise with anyone.
+1